Faith

I always say the greatest fight is staying under that umbrella.  So you are serving God, god is in the middle of your life... he's creating miracles in your life and you know that the game is about to change.  I realize that when God steps into your life everything will change, it has to ....


You know today I had this conversation with a friend.  This is a person that has really seen the trials of life..went through a lot of changes in her life and through it all, never forgot God and kept close to her Bible and as she called herself a survivor through it all.  She is still out there working trying to put a life together... but God came along and cause a pause in her life, at first when it happened of course like all of us we believe that God is not hearing us and question why he is letting these things happen to us... But it is all happening for our good... we cannot see it but the Good and wonderful God can see it.  She was talking about this with her sister in law and her sister-in-law told her and I believe it to be true, she said " you know you have been fighting all your life that you do not know anything else, but now it is time for rest, you just simply have to relax".  It is true, God is just giving her a chance to sit still and have him take care of her for a change.


Being still is the hardest thing for us.  When I look at this woman I see faith... I see the seed of faith, and God is just growing her into her incarnation.  With everything that she has fought, her greatest worry is that one day she may end up with Alzheimer's, because her mother had it... Now her older brother is showing signs of it...her greatest fear is that this can happen to her.. and I feel her fear. I have no answer for her, only that God will hear her prayer and deliver her.   I cannot tell this to her, she is in a state of disbelief, so I know that I have to pray for her... but I do know that God will deliver her I feel it. You know ever since recovering from Breast cancer... I understand that fear and that concern.  You know I was taking the heaviest amount of Chemo for almost 6 months and a I found a church where god's people dwell and they rally and prayed with me and believed that God will cure me and he did, I personally heard his voice that I should not take anymore chemo, of which I told my doctor and it was surprising to him so he wanted me to be tested, the results came back that the cancer was gone.  At first the news was mind boggling because I knew that it was the Lords doing... and I was speechless, I could hardly speak but go to church and give God's praise for I know what he has done... but every time I feel like my friend, I know that God has deliver me from something awful and has brought me back from Sheol..but every time the adversary stays on my back and tries to rob you of your goodness by injecting your mind that what you know did happen, did not happen and the doubts come in every so often, that I believe that it is coming back and then I have to stop and beg God to help my short moments of disbelief, to help me work on overcoming that.  Those doubts, those disbelief is harder to fight than a chronic disease... but we know that God is able.

You know God did not only heal me, he also healed my finances and I wrestle the devil every day I am at work, because he believe that he can arrest my income from me.  I am here to tell him "get thee behind me" and I bind you in the name of Jesus that you be gone out of my life and my affairs, I place my work place now in Gods wonderful hands that the battle will be won and I will be victorious at all times at work.  God will use  my workplace to glorify his name and show his marvelous work.  I do not  know if I have been giving up, or trying to learn what God has in store, what is his next move.  Sometimes I often worry really how close am I to god, am I doing his work.  We get so caught up with our cares that we do not understand that we have God's work to do and that is to pass his word onto to others, to heal the sick and broken hearted.  To build lives and help others keep faith in God.

^{Psalm 36:}

¹ I have a message from God in my heart
   concerning the sinfulness of the wicked:^[b]
There is no fear of God
   before their eyes.

 ² In their own eyes they flatter themselves
   too much to detect or hate their sin.
³ The words of their mouths are wicked and deceitful;
   they fail to act wisely or do good.
⁴ Even on their beds they plot evil;
   they commit themselves to a sinful course
   and do not reject what is wrong.
 ⁵ Your love, LORD, reaches to the heavens,
   your faithfulness to the skies.
⁶ Your righteousness is like the highest mountains,
   your justice like the great deep.
   You, LORD, preserve both people and animals.
⁷ How priceless is your unfailing love, O God!
   People take refuge in the shadow of your wings.
⁸ They feast on the abundance of your house;
   you give them drink from your river of delights.
⁹ For with you is the fountain of life;
   in your light we see light.
 ¹⁰ Continue your love to those who know you,
   your righteousness to the upright in heart.
¹¹ May the foot of the proud not come against me,
   nor the hand of the wicked drive me away.
¹² See how the evildoers lie fallen—
   thrown down, not able to rise!